Happy Saturday! It has been a while since my last blog post. I had hoped for life to get back to some sort of normalcy sooner, but it continued on with much more drama than I had planned. As you know my sister died at the end of February. During the four months that have passed by I came in contact with my father, who I had not seen in fifteen years. As children we were victims of child abuse who became adult survivors. My father apologized to me at my sister's funeral for the years of abuse, but in reality over the past several months of contact with him, nothing had really changed with his personality. It is very sad because he is ninety and I really wanted to believe that I would have a father who would accept me as an individual and an adult. I have finally come to the conclusion as a survivor of a parent who is a pedophile, that sometimes in life it is just better to walk away and begin again. For as sad as these statements may seem, looking ahead will help me return to a quiet, normal life filled with normal things...family, friends, sewing, creating, cooking and working.
Stress has left me chasing rainbows! In the midst of all of the drama I made way too many purchases and some of them have been fabric! My poor mailman has made almost a daily trek to my doorstop with packages of gorgeous fabric and threads. I haven't done much sewing, but my stash has grown immensely! One of my latest rainbows is from Dear Stella and is a gorgeous collection of Dots!The next stack is from V & Company and is actually two of her collections combined. They look so gorgeous together!
This is actually two fat eighth bundles that I purchased on Instagram from the #greatfabricdestash! One is a Robert Kaufman Remix bundle and the other is a lovely stack of yummy fabrics from different designers.
Free Spirit Solids are always beautiful and the rainbow will divide up nicely into different upcoming projects. Riley Blake dots printed in a gorgeous array of colors just makes me smile all over again!
True Colors by Jenean Morrison and more the combination of additional Dear Stella Fabrics just make a happy collection of fabrics for later use!
There have been many more fabric purchases that were added to my stash, but the common theme of chasing a rainbow for a better day appears to have happened. In my heart I know that whatever happened in the past with my family wasn't my fault, but in my soul I just longed for a meaningful apology to make up for all of the craziness.
It is time for me to return to sewing again. My sister used to stand at the door of my sewing room when we lived with her for several years in Pittsburgh. She would walk into the room and sit at the extra chair and see what I was making. I miss her opinions and an occasional email from her that would critique a blog post, or correct my grammar. As I return to my new sewing room I will share pictures with you and always think of her. She would want me to sew again and I need to re-find my creative soul to heal the rest of the way. Thank you for following my blog and hanging in there with me. Life truly is a journey. Have a Happy Saturday and Happy Quilting!